Fear
Posted by The Jackal on 2.01.2010 :: |Fear –noun
1. a distressing emotion aroused by impending danger, evil, pain, etc., whether the threat is real or imagined; the feeling or condition of being afraid.
2. a specific instance of or propensity for such a feeling: an abnormal fear of heights.
3. concern or anxiety; solicitude: a fear for someone's safety.
4. reverential awe, esp. toward God.
5. that which causes a feeling of being afraid; that of which a person is afraid: Cancer is a common fear.
I have done a lot of things during my time that have given me an adrenaline rush. I'm a bit of a
junkie at times and am willing to try pretty much anything if the opportunity arises.
fallen out of a tree....check
fallen off of a one-story roof....check (twice)
rock climbing....check (incident free)
crashed hard on BMX bikes....check
crashed hard on mountain bikes....check
crashed hard on cyclocross bikes....check
shoulders brushed by passing motorists while riding road bike....check
120+mph in a car....check
160+mph on a motorcycle....check
100+mph on a motorcycle into a ditch....check (that one was a big check)
What's the point of all this you ask?
I woke up on Sunday morning with the left side of my face feeling numb and droppy. Couldn't blink my left eye very well, left side of my mouth won't smile and moves very little when I talk, left side of my lower lip has no feeling at all. Couldn't keep water in my mouth as I brushed my teeth. Fear set in, plain and simple. Amy drove me to see the doctor and thankfully him and his nurse were both very knowledgeable and helpful. The Doctor diagnosed it as Bell's Palsy and thinks that I should be fine in a few weeks. Of course, having the internet at my fingertips means that I went home and started reading, reading, and reading some more. I should be an expert shortly, right? Probably not. In some cases it can take longer for things to go back to normal and in very few cases it can be permanent. The Doctor was otherwise very pleased with my health and physical shape so he seemed to be pretty confident that I would be fine. I'm taking his word on it and the fear has pretty much left the building.
Happy Monday. :)



